My husband and I met in Paris. We collect Eiffel Towers. We love all things Eiffel and all things Paris. You would too if you'd met your soul mate in Paris.
I obsess over what will happen to our Eiffel Towers. Who would want them but our own children or grandchildren.
But it's not just our Eiffel Towers.
I just knitted my very first scarf. I showed it to a friend who said she has a hat that her great grandmother knitted. She said my scarf will be very special to someone one day. But "to whom" I wondered, as I fought back tears.
Where will my wedding ring and engagement ring end up? And where will the precious things handed down to me by other family members end up.
I obsess over this. Day and night. Odd little things pop in my head. What will happen to this, what will happen to that, will anyone appreciate it the way I did, will anyone understand what it meant to me. But they are just things, so I feel silly obsessing over them. But I do.
If I had children, I wouldn't give these things a second thought. I'd have my children to care for and to love. And things would hold little meaning.
I feel like a dead end.